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Daphne: How do you say goodbye when there was never a real "goodbye"

  Daphne My sister Daphne was five years older than me, yet we were extremely close.  Daphne was my protector for as long as I could remember.  As children, she protected me from the harsh words of school bullies who didn’t like us because we stayed at school long enough to make lasting friendships. She defended me when Mom was frustrated by my inability to let her have the last word. She distracted me when my Mom’s second husband would get verbally and physically abusive, so even now, I can’t truly tap into those memories of fear. She consoled me when one of my Dad’s wives would mistreat us or completely ignore our existence while in their home. Daphne was what kept me safe and sane for the majority of my childhood.  Standing just 5 feet 4 inches, Daphne was petite, but she was powerful. Her hands were the size of my entire face and when she hit you, she hit hard! She was the quiet type but if provoked, she was also the ask questions later type.  I remember one...
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Friends...how many of us have them

The meaning of friend is a person with whom one is allied in a struggle or cause; one who supports, sympathizes with, and is trustworthy.  Over the past few weeks I have really been thinking about my friendships and the types of friends that I have now and the type of friend that I am to others. After mom passed I am literally the only person living in the Washington D.C. area.  I have no family other than my husband and children.  So over the years I've created a small network of friends who I now call my family.  But this extremely exclusive network has come with a cost.  When I think back to my college years there were so many friendships that I didn't nurture.  Instead I got lazy and I didn't put the time and effort into them.  And now I hardly talk to many people who once had been very close and dear to me.  In the past I would use the excuse that I had Maya as a way to make myself feel better but I think that I just got lazy.  ...

Serenity

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference. Often times in my life I have been faced with an issue or a situation in which I feel so helpless.  I feel like I have no control over my life and I almost go crazy over the idea that I cannot do anything about where I am going.  But then I think of the serenity prayer and I realize that there are certain situations that I must go through so that God can teach me a lesson.  One of my biggest lessons that I am still trying to achieve is patience.  I have a hard time waiting and trusting on God to work my situation out. I can think of countless times when I could not hold on to God's promise and wait.  Instead I took the issue into my own hands and tried to "fix" it and then I ended up in a bigger mess than that which I started.  And guess what happens next?  I still need to come to God and ask for help and Hi...